in the eye of the beholder

strange experience this morning. an aha moment. sitting on the back steps, looking out into the gardens, and the garage area behind, partially hidden by trees and bushes.

to see or not to see

Nick was to come and mow the back. but he didn’t come, and i wasn’t expecting him, since I had just gotten off the phone with him.

and yet…

in the shadows, in the spaces between leaf and limb, i could make out the shape of his car next to the garage. i knew it was not there, but, alas, i could glimpse it quite clearly in a hazy sort of way.

it was so real, i got up and walked into the yard, closer to where the phantom car sat. and sure enough, it wasn’t there.

double knowledge, so to speak, and yet when i sat down again and peered out, i could still make out his car.

i don’t have an answer for this, but it gave me a clear perception that we see exactly what we want to see, making it up, even if it isn’t there at all.

now, what do i do with that new insight?


What is the most fun thing you’ve ever done?

That’s a hard one to answer isn’t it?

Here are some of the things that come to my mind…

Riding my bike through puddles.

Pushing John Carter Scott into the pool, fully clothed.

Hiking up to Look Out Point.

Eating TWO hotdogs at  Bob’s.

Going to Colorado when I was 15.

Wandering around (anywhere, really).

That night in Philly, pitch black, in the deserted gardens, listening to the guys jump out and scare the daylights out of each other.

The boardwalk, when I was eight. Actually, the whole package .. going to Wildwood to see all the cousins.

Getting to go to the Beatles concert when I was 16 (but I didn’t know it at the time).

Riding Buttons at dawn in the fall with Cindy and Dad.

Shopping with Mom.

But, the very most fun? The very most? Greece. Trying to find Merlin’s well. Paris was quite an adventure… oh, yes. Vivaldi at Saint-Chapelle. Listening to Robert Bly was terrific… Dad making up stories was great… Pestering my little sisters was a treat… Oh, and Christmas and Halloween…

Staying in bed and lazing about. I love that, too…

and… skiing in powder.